I am so excited you are choosing to be a part of my growing blog. I am humbled at the interest you have taken in my story, and I pray that through my brokenness you will be able to see where my strength comes from. I love talking about things that I have passion for, you could say it is the love of my life, and that would be my Lord savior Jesus Christ! For those of you that don't know me my name is Angela I have been called, by God, to be pen my life of how the Gospel of Christ has changed me. How he has worked in my life helping me over come sins, deaths, condemnation, depression, anxiety, and issues of abandonment and abuse. I could list many more debilitating emotions that I have locked with in me but as my story unfolds you will be able to learn more. The story of my life, the hard parts that are locked inside of me, I now choose to let run free so that you may know you are not alone in your struggles of this world, and so that satin can no longer keep me held captive through shame. God has walked every had step with me and He is walking it with you. He gave me freedom from shame and he can extend that same grace to you.
So as I set here at my family table I am inviting you in, as my family, to set down, get your favorite drink, grab a snack and lets talk. If you feel comfortable you can share some of your fears and I will listen with an open heart and be nonjudgmental. If it makes you feel more at ease I will start.
Christ had the anointing of God upon him, and he came to encourage the meek heal the broken hearted and to proclaim freedom to those held captive by sin; open the prison doors and give freedom to all that would fallow him. I believe this with every fiber of my being. I am completely in love with the Lord. I know what it is like to be so broken that you don't think you can breathe and feel the mercies of Christ sweep over you bringing strength and hope to your broken soul. I knw what it is like to feel trapped in hell with no way out only to have the Lord guide me to something more beautiful than I could have imagined. Sadly, I know what it is like to call myself a child of God but yet stumble, fall and sin so badly that the shame and guilt caused me to withdraw from life itself. Shame is one of the most crippling emotion the devil uses to keep us paralyzed preventing us from living freely in the blessing of the Lord Jesus Christ. Jesus gives power to the weak and to them that have no strength he will strengthen them. (Isaiah 40:29)
The Spirit of the Lord GOD [is] upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to [them that are] bound; (Isa 61:1 KJV)
As I set at my family table and look at you, I want you to know what I am feeling, this is hard. I don't open up this easily. My fear is screaming to me in my head "You aren't good enough! You never were and you aren't now!" I have heard this scream of belittlement all of my life. It controls every decision I make and every decision I don't fallow through with. I am paralyzed with the fear of not being good enough. But I am trusting you with my fragile fear right now. I am trusting God for the strength to speak His truth into the pit of worthlessness I am feeling right now. One of my Facebook friends one posted "How do you run from what's in your head" I can only imagine the torture of her thought at that moment. My body hurts for her. Do you feel that way? Have you ever felt that way? I know I have, almost daily. I can feel my mouth getting dry as I try to speak truth over fear. I reach to get my tea to wet my mouth, my hand is shaky, and I am hoping you don't notice. Yes I am scared but this must be done. We have to push through the fear and let the Truth speak life into us. I discovered, Jennie Allen, author of Get Out of You Head has penned it perfectly in her book. Page 214-216 has listed truths from the Word of God that should be spoken over us daily. I highly recommend this book for you.
This is what God says about Himself and you:
I am who I am. Exodus 3:14
I am the beginning and the end. I am the first, and I am the last. Revelations 22:13
I am light; in me there is no darkness at all. 1 John1:5
My hand laid the foundation of the earth, and my right hand spread out the heavens: when I call them the stand forth together. Isaiah 48:13
Before I formed you in the womb I knew you. Jeremiah 1:5
I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you. John 15:16
I am he who blots out your transgressions. I will not remember your sins. Isaiah 43:25
To all who receive Me, who believe in my name, I give the right to become children of God. John 1:12
Do you not know that you are God's temple and that God's Spirit dwells in you? 1 Corinthians 3:16
My Spirit is with in you. Ezekiel 36:27
I will not leave you. Deuteronomy 31:8
I will equip you for every good work I've planned. Hebrews 13:21
I did not give you a spirit of fear, but of power and love and sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7
I will comfort you as you weight. Isaiah 66:13
But the Comforter, [which is] the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you. {I will remind you this is real} John 14:26
Behold, I come quickly: hold that fast which thou hast, that no man take thy crown. Revelations 3:11 {I will return}
My steadfast love endures forever. Psalms 25:13
In just a little while...
I am coming and I will take you to a place where I am. Hebrews 10:37; John 14:3
You will inherit the earth. Psalms 25:13
My kingdom is coming.
My will will be done on earth as it is in Heave,. Matthew 6:10
These are God's truths, and they are for me and they are for you. God is sovran and is faithful and just. He is my truth and my anchor when life wants to carry my away in fear.
Back to the question my friend ask, how do you run from what's in your head? You can't! but you can change how you think!
There are a lot of scriptures in this post and each week I will set with you and tell you a little about the thoughts that terrorize me and how they control my actions as well as how these scriptures and more have helped change my thought patterns and my life.
I am an imperfect but forgiven child of God!
You must read Get Out Of My Head to understand why I am going to end each blog with this declaration. https://fb.watc.txt If this link does not work go to P31 OBS on FaceBook and watch at the round table on 7/29/2021
FEAR no longer holds power over me!
FEAR no longer holds power over the ones that set with me at my table!
God I ask that you to see the thought of those the one that has decided to set with me today. I know what it is like to be consumed by agonizing thoughts that paralyze me. Lord I pray as we start on this journey together that you will free us from the bondage of satan that we may run freely in your truth and in your blessings. Keep us until we set together again. In Jesus Name I pray AMEN!
[Gen 6:5 KJV] 5 And GOD saw that the wickedness of man [was] great in the earth, and [that] every imagination of the thoughts of his heart [was] only evil continually.
[Psa 94:11 KJV] 11 The LORD knows the thoughts of man, that they [are] vanity.
[Pro 16:3 KJV] 3 Commit thy works unto the LORD, and thy thoughts shall be established.
[Isa 55:8 KJV] 8 For my thoughts [are] not your thoughts, neither [are] your ways my ways, saith the LORD.
[Jer 29:11 KJV] 11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
[Luk 24:38 KJV] 38 And he said unto them, Why are ye troubled? and why do thoughts arise in your hearts?
[2Co 10:5 KJV] 5 Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;
[Phl 4:7-8 KJV] 7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things [are] honest, whatsoever things [are] just, whatsoever things [are] pure, whatsoever things [are] lovely, whatsoever things [are] of good report; if [there be] any virtue, and if [there be] any praise, think on these things.
[Tit 3:3-7 KJV] 3 For we ourselves also were sometimes foolish, disobedient, deceived, serving divers lusts and pleasures, living in malice and envy, hateful, [and] hating one another. 4 But after that the kindness and love of God our Saviour toward man appeared, 5 Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to his mercy he saved us, by the washing of regeneration, and renewing of the Holy Ghost; 6 Which he shed on us abundantly through Jesus Christ our Saviour; 7 That being justified by his grace, we should be made heirs according to the hope of eternal life.
