How is it possible it has been four months since I have heard your voice? My lips miss kissing you and my eyes can't seem to focus on anything but that beautiful smile that you wore on your face. I loved how your eyes sparkled when you smiled at me. I miss your loving touch and the gentle way you held me close to you as I slept. I miss you!
There is no right way to grieve the loss of a person you loved so much. The greater the love the greater the degree of pain when you grieve. Life makes no sense without the person you love. I struggle with every breath to survive. My entire body hurts with pain. I keep telling myself there is a chance you will walk in the door, and I will wake up from this nightmare. This is never ending torment for my heart.
My advice to you...love deeply, forgive quickly and never make the person you love feel like a failure. The world is cruel enough, be their safe place to fall apart and find strength in your love. We all need a partner in life to love us through any storm. Don't look for that perfect partner to love you but be the person to take ahold of a hand and say I am here for you. Be the kind of person you want to love you. Never be afraid to love. Dance the dance and gaze at the stars, take the walks in the rain and always kiss goodnight! Maybe you just might find you soul mate the love of your life your best friend.
What I have learned by losing the love of my life is, don't take tomorrow for granted. Say I love you, show I love you and never leave without kissing the ones you love bye and holding them a little longer. You never know when that will be the last time you get to see them.
The night I headed off to the ER I started to let William sleep. The Lord whispered no go tell him goodbye, I walked into the bedroom and set softly on the bed. I swiped my hand across his forehead and ask if he was awake. He said yes and I bent over kissing him on the cheek. I love you I told him softly and he took my hand in his; I love you too. We exchanged some small talk and I kissed him and held on to him for a long time, The last time I would ever talk to him again.
Listen to the whispers to your heart and be diligent to obey, you never know when that will be your one and only chance to make a difference. It is 5:16 on the morning and I haven't slept any tonight. I know what the pain feels like so love deeply, forgive quickly and don't let time slip away, you can never get it back once it is gone.
